Okay, sometimes life just pushes too much...
Did you ever wish you could, for just like 15 minutes, be five years old again? And curl up in someones arms that is stronger and smarter and more in control than you are? And feel safe and warm and confident that everything is fine and is going to be fine? That is what I want today.
Sometimes unexpected decision making needs, in situations that are far more complex than they look from the outside, make me feel that way. That is how I feel today. I just wish I even had one other person who understood all the aspects of this particular situation--as there are just too many to try to explain, and could just be here. A little hand holding from someone that gets it would be akin to feeling like a 5 year old safe in a loving snuggle. But alas...I am alone in this, and need to hope and pray that I make the decision that is best for me and my children, and not worry about what others believe about what I should decide. My life, my whole purpose, right now is to do what is going to best help these two children grow into their fullest potential in ALL areas of their personal development--physically, academically, spiritually, emotionally, mentally, etc..., which is a very different goal than anyone else involved in this situation...
Anyone have magic wand to make me 5 years old, and give me a snuggle for a bit and then return me to my adult self?
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