Each day is a new start. No matter how bad the day before was, there is always something new in a new day. It is a new chance to realize that THIS day is the first day of the rest of your life.
"Why is my life filled with all this stuff I don't want?!?" "Because you're insane!" From an audio program with Wayne Dyer. It was exactly what I needed. He was making the point that we have the choice, we have to ability to focus on what we want or what we don't want. When we focus on what we don't want we bring that into our lives and the more we focus on what we don't want, the more we bring more and more of that reality into our lives. So if we are looking around seeing that our lives are not as we know they should be, then we need to start looking at life differently. We need to start looking at our blessings, focus on the things we have that we do want, that are blessing for us. As we do, more and more of those things will grow. To focus on what you do not want, and thus bring more of that focus into your life, that IS insane.
As I have been working with a number of these ideas of focusing on blessings, focus on what I want and appreciate in my life. It definite spirals, either up or down, depending on what I focus on. As I focus on the things that make me miserable, I become more miserable. As I focus on what happened in the past, it just repeats itself again. That means that I have the power, I have the God given ability, to create my reality, to create a reality I like or a reality I don't like. It is my choice, it is my focus. So after letting myself get bogged down in anger, fear, self pity, and regret for the past couple of weeks, it is taking me time to break out of this negative mode.
A was fired form the convenience store yesterday. The cycle continues, and perhaps it is my focus that has contributed to it, as with A out of work, I end up dealing more with A, A can't move out of my father's house now, A can't see what role they played in this. "I was fired for no reason". When A gets into one of those modes I know that verbal yelling and emotional abuse about how everyone else has ruined A's life, and I am primary target of that. SO when A came over after being fired, I was supportive and then asked A to leave as I was not in a space where I could deal with this right now. Which of course set off a tirade about how I had no reason to feel badly about my life and how I had ruined A's life and on and on. A doesn't get it, it is the verbal and emotional abuse whenever anything goes wrong in A's life that is one of the primary reason I left (especially as it is worse, so much worse when A is drinking). So anyway, it was not an easy evening, but it made me realize that I am again drawing negative experiences into my life. It is time, and I am ready to turn that back around. I have been focusing too much on the negative. I have focused too little on the positive. I have focused on what I don't want rather than looking forward and focusing on what I do want. Each day is a new day to decide to look forward, to move forward. Each moment you can change your mind.
I am enjoying this Healing with the Master's series, it's free and it is ongoing, and it is amazing. It is exactly what I need to help myself focus on the person I am becoming. On the person I really am. It helps greatly in my transformation. My body truly is a reflection of my interal life, my mind, my spirit. It is the visible, physical manifestation of how I Am on a deeper level. It is the transformation of who I AM on the inside that is affecting the who I am on the outside. It is good...change is good...life is good...I chose today to focus on the positive.
Food journalling--yesterday, as I did not write. I had a sausage egg and cheese on a croissant, some tater tots, coffee, and orange juice, and water. I had yogurt and dried fruit for lunch. For dinner we had spaghetti and then I had raisin bran with milk for a late snack.
Today I have had sausage egg and cheese and tater tots and coffee and water.
I also walked at the other park today. As differs from the pond with its level gravel path, the park has all sorts of trails through the woods, uneven ground, rocks and roots, up and down. So instead of walking the level path today, I spent 45 minutes walking some of the trails at the other park today. I'll write again later...
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
Monday, April 11, 2011
Shoulda, Woulda, Coulda....
I have been dealing with a very annoying and extremely persistent round of the "shoulda woulda coulda" monsters. A few years ago (for a period of a few year, so not a fleeting thing) I had reached a point in my life where I had no regrets, where I could look at the journey my life had taken, the good and the bad, the decisions I had made, the mistakes I had made, the things that I had been done to me that I had no control over, the things that I had control over and allowed to happen anyway, the dreams I had followed, the dreams I had walked away from--all of those things that had made up my life, that had brought me to that point were things I was willing to accept and welcome, as I could see how they made me into the person I was at that point. As much as I hated some of the paths my life had traveled through, I was proud of the person I had become, and looking forward to a bright and successful future. I will not go into it all, as it was amazing and alot, but....
Prior to that period of time and after that period I had those runs of "shoulda, woulda, coulda"--those things that I wish I had done differently, the choices I wish I had made differently, those things that I was too afraid to do and those things I just left undone. When I get a round of "shoulda, woulda, coulda" going, I normally am very good at reflecting on my accomplishments, reflecting on the things that I would never change about the life that I have--overall I am usually very, very good at sliding that "shoulda, woulda, coulda" aside and accepting my life as it is, knowing that both the good and the bad brought me to where I am today, and that the person I am today is who I am and who I want to be....
This weekend though, sometime Saturday afternoon or evening, my mind started on a round of "shoulda, woulda, coulda" that is being more difficult to overcome. Seven years ago I was doing cutting edge research at an Ivy League University in a lab headed by a truly top notch scientist. I was presenting and publishing papers, working with people from all over the world. I owned my own house, was in control of my debt, and very active in my church. I had a lot of friends, a great group of people in my life that I could count on and that could count on me, and I had the respect of my family. Now I am not that person..... shoulda woulda coulda.... I gotta let it go
Prior to that period of time and after that period I had those runs of "shoulda, woulda, coulda"--those things that I wish I had done differently, the choices I wish I had made differently, those things that I was too afraid to do and those things I just left undone. When I get a round of "shoulda, woulda, coulda" going, I normally am very good at reflecting on my accomplishments, reflecting on the things that I would never change about the life that I have--overall I am usually very, very good at sliding that "shoulda, woulda, coulda" aside and accepting my life as it is, knowing that both the good and the bad brought me to where I am today, and that the person I am today is who I am and who I want to be....
This weekend though, sometime Saturday afternoon or evening, my mind started on a round of "shoulda, woulda, coulda" that is being more difficult to overcome. Seven years ago I was doing cutting edge research at an Ivy League University in a lab headed by a truly top notch scientist. I was presenting and publishing papers, working with people from all over the world. I owned my own house, was in control of my debt, and very active in my church. I had a lot of friends, a great group of people in my life that I could count on and that could count on me, and I had the respect of my family. Now I am not that person..... shoulda woulda coulda.... I gotta let it go
Sunday, April 10, 2011
The weekend...
Wow. I just realized that I have not posted since Friday morning. It is a beautiful weekend weather wise. We even got up near 60 degrees at home today. And the monstrous mountain of snow in front of my house is now only about 5 feet high. I can't see any yard yet, its still under at least 2-3 feet of snow, but the driveway is clearer which is nice.
Okay so Friday was a nice day. I need to get to food journaling. So Friday I had a sub on 9 grain wheat with cheese, turkey, lettuce, tomato, onion, black olives, banana peppers, pickles, and chipolte sauce (at subway). I also had a bottle of water, a cup of coffee and a single size bag of smartfood popcorn. For dinner, the kids had mini pizzas and A and I had steak-um sandwiches. I ate some jelly beans with the kids sometime in the evening.
Saturday I had ww toast with pb and honey, and later a bowl of cheerios with milk. I had a little box mac & cheese for lunch. For dinner I went over to my Dad's house. I brought baked chicken, and my sister and her kids brought mac salad and chips, and we all enjoyed a nice meal and conversation. I had some microwave popcorn in the evening after we got home.
Today for eats, I had toast with PB & honey, and cheerios with milk. For lunch I made scrambled eggs and toast with orange juice, as well as 2 cups of tea. I had some popcorn with a cup of tea this afternoon.
I have been trying to organize my house today. It is always nice to have things neater and calmer.
Okay so Friday was a nice day. I need to get to food journaling. So Friday I had a sub on 9 grain wheat with cheese, turkey, lettuce, tomato, onion, black olives, banana peppers, pickles, and chipolte sauce (at subway). I also had a bottle of water, a cup of coffee and a single size bag of smartfood popcorn. For dinner, the kids had mini pizzas and A and I had steak-um sandwiches. I ate some jelly beans with the kids sometime in the evening.
Saturday I had ww toast with pb and honey, and later a bowl of cheerios with milk. I had a little box mac & cheese for lunch. For dinner I went over to my Dad's house. I brought baked chicken, and my sister and her kids brought mac salad and chips, and we all enjoyed a nice meal and conversation. I had some microwave popcorn in the evening after we got home.
Today for eats, I had toast with PB & honey, and cheerios with milk. For lunch I made scrambled eggs and toast with orange juice, as well as 2 cups of tea. I had some popcorn with a cup of tea this afternoon.
I have been trying to organize my house today. It is always nice to have things neater and calmer.
Friday, April 8, 2011
Day 26--What a glorious day!!
The sun is shining, the snow is melting, the pond is over half way clear of ice, and I had a WONDERFUL time walking around the pond this morning (5 laps again so over a 1.3 miles). I was able to do a walking meditation, some prayer, and repeated, life building affirmations. So I started out well.
I then came to the library and have worked on filing an application for a bio/phar freelance writer (which will hopefully give me a somewhat steady work flow for writing assignments if I get accepted). Now I am just updating this blog.
I have actually not eaten anything yet today. That is very odd since I am always a breakfast eater, and here it is nearly lunch time and I have only had water. So I need to go remedy that. I had to use my computer to check bank balances as I was out of yogurt and stuff to bring with me, and with my normal large monthly check arriving today, I am eeking out the last of the month's money until I can get the mail and put it in the bank. Also G's CSE meeting is this afternoon, and a is picking up the kids. I was actually going to try to take the afternoon and evening for myself, but I have to go home to the post office and the bank in order to get the money in. So I won't be finding some event down here in the city, oh well...
I then came to the library and have worked on filing an application for a bio/phar freelance writer (which will hopefully give me a somewhat steady work flow for writing assignments if I get accepted). Now I am just updating this blog.
I have actually not eaten anything yet today. That is very odd since I am always a breakfast eater, and here it is nearly lunch time and I have only had water. So I need to go remedy that. I had to use my computer to check bank balances as I was out of yogurt and stuff to bring with me, and with my normal large monthly check arriving today, I am eeking out the last of the month's money until I can get the mail and put it in the bank. Also G's CSE meeting is this afternoon, and a is picking up the kids. I was actually going to try to take the afternoon and evening for myself, but I have to go home to the post office and the bank in order to get the money in. So I won't be finding some event down here in the city, oh well...
post before sleep
final food journal for today.
lunch was a small cup of mac & cheese
I ate a handful of jelly beans with the kids after we got home.
For Dinner, A had called wile I was picking up the kids and asked what to put in for dinner. As I have not visited with my father in a couple of weeks I said to put in the ham and roast some potatoes with it.
So I took a ham dinner over to my dad's house and A, the kids and I ate dinner with Dad and had a great talk. I really want my little farm, so I talked with my Dad tonight about checking into what it would take to build a simple house on the other end of his property (he has 36 acres), and he said he would be okay with it but that the permits alone would probably cost too much.
I did some exploring and if the old well up on the end of the property can be used (it was filled in with rocks over 50 years ago, so it is a long shot) and if I can figure out the septic, then it might be possible. though looking at pouring a slab foundation and doing a radiant heat system, that alone might break the bank. Roofing is extremely expensive too. So it may just be too much, but boy would I love to build it. Right now it is in dream mode, but I will find some time over the next month to check into things and see if it is potentially feasible. I'd be nice to have Dad as a neighbor too,as he is getting older and I worry about him...
Oh, before bed I had toast with peanut butter. It is now ridiculously late and I need to sleep.
lunch was a small cup of mac & cheese
I ate a handful of jelly beans with the kids after we got home.
For Dinner, A had called wile I was picking up the kids and asked what to put in for dinner. As I have not visited with my father in a couple of weeks I said to put in the ham and roast some potatoes with it.
So I took a ham dinner over to my dad's house and A, the kids and I ate dinner with Dad and had a great talk. I really want my little farm, so I talked with my Dad tonight about checking into what it would take to build a simple house on the other end of his property (he has 36 acres), and he said he would be okay with it but that the permits alone would probably cost too much.
I did some exploring and if the old well up on the end of the property can be used (it was filled in with rocks over 50 years ago, so it is a long shot) and if I can figure out the septic, then it might be possible. though looking at pouring a slab foundation and doing a radiant heat system, that alone might break the bank. Roofing is extremely expensive too. So it may just be too much, but boy would I love to build it. Right now it is in dream mode, but I will find some time over the next month to check into things and see if it is potentially feasible. I'd be nice to have Dad as a neighbor too,as he is getting older and I worry about him...
Oh, before bed I had toast with peanut butter. It is now ridiculously late and I need to sleep.
Thursday, April 7, 2011
Day 25--Finally a weigh in...
Okay, so... (my son was saying this a lot recently and I kept wondering where he picked it up from, and then one day I realized after writing it that I say that all the time without thinking about it, so THAT is where he gets it from).
Okay, SO...I finally remembered to step on the scale this morning before my shower and all the getting ready activities of the morning. As suspected I did not lose much since my last weigh in. But I did lose. The scale read 288lbs, down 3 pounds from my last weigh in and 17 pounds from my day 1 weigh in. SO, even with the emotional eating of the weekend, my body continues to amaze me in losing a bit more poundage.
After dropping the kids off, I headed over to the pond. I am so grateful that the snow has finally melted away from over 90% of the path around the pond. It was a clear blue sky, the pond is actually showing large open water areas, and the crocuses are coming up. I even saw some daffodil leave (no flower yet) in the garden by the pond. I did 5 laps around the pond, which amounts to about 1 1/3 mile (3.5 laps =1 mile). Then I enjoyed my breakfast. Today I did have my yogurt (Dannon Light & Fit blueberry) with dry oatmeal, a medium coffee, and 3 cups of water.
I had a great long (2+ hours) phone conversation with my best friend after that, and ended up standing outside the library in the little park for all that time enjoying the warm 40+ degree air, the sunshine, and the bright blue sky. It is great to have a best friend that knows me so well (after almost 19 years of friendship--we met as freshmen in college--she knows me better than anyone except myself--and even then I wonder...). We talked about a lot of things, big and small on both ends. It was just a wonderful connection with her, and though we only see each other a couple of times a year (as we live over 300 miles apart), it is amazing to me how much she is always there for me. God has blessed this friendship, which has endured over a lot of rough and rocky spots over the years.
I have not gotten a lot of work done today (I did get a little bit, but am running short on time), so tomorrow I have to buckle down and have an uber productive day. Blessings to you all and I will write again before bed.
Okay, SO...I finally remembered to step on the scale this morning before my shower and all the getting ready activities of the morning. As suspected I did not lose much since my last weigh in. But I did lose. The scale read 288lbs, down 3 pounds from my last weigh in and 17 pounds from my day 1 weigh in. SO, even with the emotional eating of the weekend, my body continues to amaze me in losing a bit more poundage.
After dropping the kids off, I headed over to the pond. I am so grateful that the snow has finally melted away from over 90% of the path around the pond. It was a clear blue sky, the pond is actually showing large open water areas, and the crocuses are coming up. I even saw some daffodil leave (no flower yet) in the garden by the pond. I did 5 laps around the pond, which amounts to about 1 1/3 mile (3.5 laps =1 mile). Then I enjoyed my breakfast. Today I did have my yogurt (Dannon Light & Fit blueberry) with dry oatmeal, a medium coffee, and 3 cups of water.
I had a great long (2+ hours) phone conversation with my best friend after that, and ended up standing outside the library in the little park for all that time enjoying the warm 40+ degree air, the sunshine, and the bright blue sky. It is great to have a best friend that knows me so well (after almost 19 years of friendship--we met as freshmen in college--she knows me better than anyone except myself--and even then I wonder...). We talked about a lot of things, big and small on both ends. It was just a wonderful connection with her, and though we only see each other a couple of times a year (as we live over 300 miles apart), it is amazing to me how much she is always there for me. God has blessed this friendship, which has endured over a lot of rough and rocky spots over the years.
I have not gotten a lot of work done today (I did get a little bit, but am running short on time), so tomorrow I have to buckle down and have an uber productive day. Blessings to you all and I will write again before bed.
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
Day 24--Is life really supposed to get MORE topsy turvy when....
Is life supposed to get more topsy turvy when you decide it is time to take steps to make your life better? Maybe that's why they call it transformation?...
I suppose it makes sense, as in order to change and move forward, you need to address all of those things that are holding you back from reaching your full potential. So when it comes time to move, you have to detach all the lines clinging to you. Which means that situations will arise that I need to find a way to deal with effectively and gently (neither of which I did this past week), so I can let go of what ever is holding me back and actual move forward. So after a rough weekend and start to the week dealing first internally and then externally (and now both) with some long standing issues, I was hoping for a chance to breathe.
But alas, when I got home last night there were two empty beer can sitting on the table. As I don't drink beer (or extremely rarely do and NEVER the cheap tasteless stuff) and the only other person who had been in my house while I was gone was A, well it seems that A has decide to make it clear that drinking is still an issue. I have known it was still going on even though A kept saying "I've been sober since June". I have been able to smell it on A, and I have seen the empty cans in A's jeep. But I have chosen not to address it with A as I feel that since we are no longer a couple, it is none of my business if A wants to continue to drink. It just bothers me that A was drinking in my house (which I am sure was probably happening before as A gets ready there every day and spends a lot of free time there when I am gone during the day), and that A left the cans where the kids could see them. As I had a bunch of stuff on the table I did not notice them at first. G sat down to do his homework and he was the one who mentioned them. He expressed that he knew whose they were, and seemed very sad, as A had promised him that the drinking was done, no more beer.
I am actually less upset over this than I thought I would be. In some ways I am relieved because I have not had the energy to bring it up, and have not felt it was really any of my business. So i left a note thanking A for being honest with me about the drinking, and asked that the cans not be left where the kids can see them. So, that was a good diplomatic solution, as A is free to live life however A sees fit, and I am also free to live my life the way that I see fit.
It is a very calming thing to know that you don't have to get upset about actions that in the past had been very upsetting. We are not together, we are living separate lives, and therefore I do not need to worry how A's actions and choices are going to impact my life (well at least not as much). I feel an odd sense of peace about this. So it is not as topsy turvy as I though I was going to feel when I started writing this post about 12 hours ago. Yeah, I am just getting back to it. I picked a $30 writing assignment at 11:15am with a 12 hour deadline, and so have had to focus on getting that submitted after the kids went to bed. It was more work than I anticipated, but i was able to submit the project at 11:07pm. So i made the deadline and hopefully it will be approved, and I will be $30 richer.
Anyway, I did laundry at the laundry mat this morning after dropping the kids off, so didn't get to the library until around 11:00, and then started this blog before realizing I needed to see if there were any assignments up for grabs. Which of course, there were and I spent the rest of my morning doing that. J had aquatic PT today, so my work time was an hour shorter. He did GREAT at swimming. I was so proud of him. His legs are scissoring more even in the water (hip abductors seem to be getting tighter) and the past few days I have noticed it more in his left than in his right, which is not normal for him. So I think its time to see his orthopedic surgeon for a followup and a hip x-ray. I am praying that the left hip has not dislocated (with the spacticity it is always a concern as the tight muscles and tendons pull on his bones--which is why he has malformed feet even with bracing since he was a baby). Its been over a year since his last x-ray, which showed some wearing of the socket, and flattening of the ball, which is why we all have been trying to get him UP on his feet as much as possible. If the hip joints get too far out of shape, his ability to walk will be further compromised. I know you are probably thinking "geez Heather, don't you have enough going on without worrying about these possibilities?" but it is not worry, it is awareness of them so that I can ensure that we can proactively address the issues in an attempt to prevent them rather than having to react when something does go wrong.
Okay, it has been a long day (aren't they all) and I have neither read nor watched netflix today--I have been trying to get some free relax time in to soothe my soul, which fun reading in particular does for me. however my eyes have been tired and burning (too much work on the computer) by the time I go to bed the past couple of weeks, so reading is hard. In that case I watch an episode of a show (movies are just too long). But tonight it is time to just crawl in bed and sleep.
Okay on to food for today:
Breakfast was a small (actually real portion size as opposed to the mega sizes you get elsewhere) sausage, egg and cheese on a English muffin from Cumberland farms (only $1.79) when I stopped to get gas. can you believe these gas prices?!?!Oh and a medium coffee with cream and sugar
I did not have time for lunch today, so when I got home at 4:00 I had a bowl of Cheerios with milk, and then a piece of bread with peanut butter on it.
At 6:30 we had dinner, which was Tuna fish sandwiches, homemade french fries and canned peaches.
I drank 4 cups of tea throughout the evening. I think I am going to have a small piece of toast with butter before I turn in, as the tea has given me heart burn, which will make it hard to sleep if I don't put something else on my stomach.
I feel like I have been seriously lacking in the vegetable department this past week, which means my kids have to. that is never good. I will be planning better.
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I suppose it makes sense, as in order to change and move forward, you need to address all of those things that are holding you back from reaching your full potential. So when it comes time to move, you have to detach all the lines clinging to you. Which means that situations will arise that I need to find a way to deal with effectively and gently (neither of which I did this past week), so I can let go of what ever is holding me back and actual move forward. So after a rough weekend and start to the week dealing first internally and then externally (and now both) with some long standing issues, I was hoping for a chance to breathe.
But alas, when I got home last night there were two empty beer can sitting on the table. As I don't drink beer (or extremely rarely do and NEVER the cheap tasteless stuff) and the only other person who had been in my house while I was gone was A, well it seems that A has decide to make it clear that drinking is still an issue. I have known it was still going on even though A kept saying "I've been sober since June". I have been able to smell it on A, and I have seen the empty cans in A's jeep. But I have chosen not to address it with A as I feel that since we are no longer a couple, it is none of my business if A wants to continue to drink. It just bothers me that A was drinking in my house (which I am sure was probably happening before as A gets ready there every day and spends a lot of free time there when I am gone during the day), and that A left the cans where the kids could see them. As I had a bunch of stuff on the table I did not notice them at first. G sat down to do his homework and he was the one who mentioned them. He expressed that he knew whose they were, and seemed very sad, as A had promised him that the drinking was done, no more beer.
I am actually less upset over this than I thought I would be. In some ways I am relieved because I have not had the energy to bring it up, and have not felt it was really any of my business. So i left a note thanking A for being honest with me about the drinking, and asked that the cans not be left where the kids can see them. So, that was a good diplomatic solution, as A is free to live life however A sees fit, and I am also free to live my life the way that I see fit.
It is a very calming thing to know that you don't have to get upset about actions that in the past had been very upsetting. We are not together, we are living separate lives, and therefore I do not need to worry how A's actions and choices are going to impact my life (well at least not as much). I feel an odd sense of peace about this. So it is not as topsy turvy as I though I was going to feel when I started writing this post about 12 hours ago. Yeah, I am just getting back to it. I picked a $30 writing assignment at 11:15am with a 12 hour deadline, and so have had to focus on getting that submitted after the kids went to bed. It was more work than I anticipated, but i was able to submit the project at 11:07pm. So i made the deadline and hopefully it will be approved, and I will be $30 richer.
Anyway, I did laundry at the laundry mat this morning after dropping the kids off, so didn't get to the library until around 11:00, and then started this blog before realizing I needed to see if there were any assignments up for grabs. Which of course, there were and I spent the rest of my morning doing that. J had aquatic PT today, so my work time was an hour shorter. He did GREAT at swimming. I was so proud of him. His legs are scissoring more even in the water (hip abductors seem to be getting tighter) and the past few days I have noticed it more in his left than in his right, which is not normal for him. So I think its time to see his orthopedic surgeon for a followup and a hip x-ray. I am praying that the left hip has not dislocated (with the spacticity it is always a concern as the tight muscles and tendons pull on his bones--which is why he has malformed feet even with bracing since he was a baby). Its been over a year since his last x-ray, which showed some wearing of the socket, and flattening of the ball, which is why we all have been trying to get him UP on his feet as much as possible. If the hip joints get too far out of shape, his ability to walk will be further compromised. I know you are probably thinking "geez Heather, don't you have enough going on without worrying about these possibilities?" but it is not worry, it is awareness of them so that I can ensure that we can proactively address the issues in an attempt to prevent them rather than having to react when something does go wrong.
Okay, it has been a long day (aren't they all) and I have neither read nor watched netflix today--I have been trying to get some free relax time in to soothe my soul, which fun reading in particular does for me. however my eyes have been tired and burning (too much work on the computer) by the time I go to bed the past couple of weeks, so reading is hard. In that case I watch an episode of a show (movies are just too long). But tonight it is time to just crawl in bed and sleep.
Okay on to food for today:
Breakfast was a small (actually real portion size as opposed to the mega sizes you get elsewhere) sausage, egg and cheese on a English muffin from Cumberland farms (only $1.79) when I stopped to get gas. can you believe these gas prices?!?!Oh and a medium coffee with cream and sugar
I did not have time for lunch today, so when I got home at 4:00 I had a bowl of Cheerios with milk, and then a piece of bread with peanut butter on it.
At 6:30 we had dinner, which was Tuna fish sandwiches, homemade french fries and canned peaches.
I drank 4 cups of tea throughout the evening. I think I am going to have a small piece of toast with butter before I turn in, as the tea has given me heart burn, which will make it hard to sleep if I don't put something else on my stomach.
I feel like I have been seriously lacking in the vegetable department this past week, which means my kids have to. that is never good. I will be planning better.
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